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Mood Disorder
BIPOLAR DISORDER
BIPOLAR DISORDER
Bipolar means having two poles or extremes of moods. A person with this illness must have had at least one "high" or manic phase. These manic states tend to occur in cycles that often - but not always - alternate with periods of depressed moods. The person with a "high", or manic mood is often very cheerful, which may case others to feel the same way. The mood is likely to be expansive, in that the person is fervent about many topics and may start talking intimately with strangers. Less often, the major mood is irritable, and the person may become quite angry when there is a dissent or hindrance to his or her wishes. Irritability may be the key symptom in children. Other symptoms and behaviors can include very high trust and belief in oneself despite extremely poor judgment, intense activity with little need for sleep, being in turmoil, and talking nonstop, sometimes with dramatic gestures and sing-song speech. The person may act on impulse with probably distressing results, such as going on buying sprees, engaging in rash sexual acts, or entering into foolish business ventures. In very severe cases, there may be short-lived delusions or hallucinations. It is thought that Bipolar Disorder has a strong genetic basis, but it is not clear yet whether the basis is for bipolar illness itsef or for a poorly regulated response of mood to chronic childhood stresses, such as family conflicts and loss. In some cases, mood swings are more frequent in certain seasons. Many people diagnosed with the disorder know when they are having a mood swing or an uncontrollable bout of emotion, but are enable to make any efforts to stop it. Bipolar disorder occurs in about equal numbers in males and females and is growing more and more common in the modern population.
ewww... hate it. >////<
- Music:the GazettE - Kare Uta
..Answer answer answer, I don't want to die..
Yesterday was an interesting day with family. I hung out with my cousins and aunts and uncles. Talked about old times over dinner.. it was really good actually. Very cool time, playing with the baby and just catching up. I know throughout the whole day I couldn't stop thinking of Aoi though. I missed her alot yesterday.. the lack of conversation killed me. >_< In the end though, we spoke. It was alittle akward at first but like always, we eventually get out of it and end up feeling better. ^^ I'm very happy that I can make her happy, in every way. Whenever she is happy, I am estatic. I just feel so much better when she is feeling good. I care for her alot. ^^ More than anything really. I'm always here to listen to your problems koibito, don't worry about that. I don't mind at all, as long as I can pull you out of your negative mood. >w< Plus, you're always talking to people online and listening to emo bitches' problems so hai. xD I'm always here to talk to and you know it. ^^ <3
Well today I shall just hang out, it shall be a boring day... and I know my mom is going to speak with Aoi's mom today. I'm not sure when, but she is. Either way, I think I will be happy for the most part. At least I get to see my love. This makes me happy beyond words.
I've missed her so so so so so so so so much I can't even describe. <3
So, that.. just hanging on the computer probably.. play some Wii and try to get past this zelda puzzle that is killing me. xD. That's it.. hai hai. ^O^
Ai shiteru Aoi. Always and forever. Really so, no lies.
I wish to be together with you for a very long time and
never want to leave you.. You mean way too much to
me. I love you! <3
Yesterday was an interesting day with family. I hung out with my cousins and aunts and uncles. Talked about old times over dinner.. it was really good actually. Very cool time, playing with the baby and just catching up. I know throughout the whole day I couldn't stop thinking of Aoi though. I missed her alot yesterday.. the lack of conversation killed me. >_< In the end though, we spoke. It was alittle akward at first but like always, we eventually get out of it and end up feeling better. ^^ I'm very happy that I can make her happy, in every way. Whenever she is happy, I am estatic. I just feel so much better when she is feeling good. I care for her alot. ^^ More than anything really. I'm always here to listen to your problems koibito, don't worry about that. I don't mind at all, as long as I can pull you out of your negative mood. >w< Plus, you're always talking to people online and listening to emo bitches' problems so hai. xD I'm always here to talk to and you know it. ^^ <3
Well today I shall just hang out, it shall be a boring day... and I know my mom is going to speak with Aoi's mom today. I'm not sure when, but she is. Either way, I think I will be happy for the most part. At least I get to see my love. This makes me happy beyond words.
I've missed her so so so so so so so so much I can't even describe. <3
So, that.. just hanging on the computer probably.. play some Wii and try to get past this zelda puzzle that is killing me. xD. That's it.. hai hai. ^O^
- Location:Home
- Mood:
accomplished - Music:the GazettE - Agony
So, today is a really bad day for me. I really can't think happy, I'm TRYING really badly but I can't ever not think the worst of things. And this brings my mood down.. wayy down. I know I have to think, 'It'll work I'll work..' and I am.. but other thoughts overshadow those and it eats away at me. I'm hoping my mother comes home early today.. how I hope this. They just neeeed to talk. >_<" The fact that the answer was so sudden was HORRIBLE. I remember picking up the phone to my mom's call and instantly hearing, 'She said december.' I was silent.. I got angry at first though rather than sad because I suppose this is my process. Then calling Aoi to tell her was even hard for me but I kept thinking still positively at that point even. Now so.. I don't know anymore. Now i really don't know at all what will happen. I hope something good happens.. There's still slight time left.
I really hope so.. I'll be crushed if not. >_<"
- Location:home
- Mood:
sad
Today is a very stressful day, and has been stressful for the past couple. I'm waiting for my aijin's mother to say that she can come and visit me, after my mother speaks to her. x_x Hopefully she will! But my mom said everything is going to be okay, so I trust her. Just very anxious to know already. >.<" I really really just want to see Aoi already. <33 I've missed her so much.. I don't think I can even describe to anyone how much so. She's such an amazing person.. *_* It's often hard for me to share my feelings but, I'm becoming more open because of her. I'm the type of person to hide my feelings.. really bottle them up and not say a peep about anything. Whether it be anger, agitation, love. It's always just been very hard because I worry for peoples reactions to my feelings.. Aoi has opened up my mind though in more ways than one and I've really noticed. Again I probably wouldn't tell her. xD but.. It's really a step up for me. She's changed me alot, and for the better. I just really really miss her so much.. I love her so much.
This will be the final time I will be able to see her for more than a week. At least until march I believe.. this kills me as well. But! we have made a plan to see eachother once a month. Not sure if it'll worrrk. XD. but it's a very nice thought and it's not totally unaccomplishable. I want to see her as much as I can. <3 Damn I wished we lived closer. o_<. It's really hard to think.. that I have to wait to see her. But, I have no control, and that's life.
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On another note, I'm getting my hair done by the near end of this week! XD Uruhaaa, here I comeee. lmao. It should look interesting and I'm very excited for so.
I have also started a diet. I'm not fat but XD it's nice to get toned up, you know? I have a slight baby fat on my tummy.. that little overhang thingie. xD not like a beer belly or anything X_X i shall take a picture sometime. xD
So the positive things in my life so far:
I have Aoi. <3
I love Aoi~ x3 <3
Aoi aoi aoi. xD
My haircut.
Aoi will be coming down in a week! X_X
aoiaoiaoidorkinessaoimansexaoi. xD <3333
My mom is gonna buy me the uru pants I have been secretly craving. xD
I shall go buy daifuku one of these days.
Probably when Aoi comes down. <3 XD
and.. That's all I can think so far.
~Ai Shiteru Aoi, Itsumo. Hontou Ni.~
- Location:home
- Mood:
hopeful - Music:the Gazette - Chizuru
- Location:home
- Mood:
blank - Music:the Gazette - Chizuru
